B. Fresh

So I saw this girl at a party the other night, and she was really really cute, and so I started wondering if she was someone who hated small talk, and didn’t hang out in bars, and wasn’t interested in playing games, and maybe we could fall in love right then and there, and maybe she would always hold my hand in public, and always smell good, and not complain that I don’t make much money, and give me the feeling that I can do anything, and tell me I’m good-looking, and make me feel like I’m the only guy in the world, and make me feel like I’m going places, and not look around the room all the time when we’re at a restaurant, and never stay mad at me for too long, and bonk my brains out with great regularity, and tell me I look cool when I drive, and never answer her cell phone when we are hanging out, and not talk about her ex-boyfriends all that often, and write me silly notes sometimes, and say I’m dark and mysterious even after you’ve known me for a while, and give me back rubs on occasion, and not get scared if I get really attached, and not consider it a wasted day if we never get out of bed, and have a pair of those knee-high leather boots somewhere in her closet, and make everything better when I have a crappy day. So then I tried talking to her but it was awkward for some reason so I went home.

So I have an idea, and I have been wanting to implement it for the last few months. Every time I have thought or talked about a person lately, so many thoughts and memories flourish my mind, and i just think about how much I appreciate the impact you have had on my life, whether it be enormous or minuscule. So what I have decided to do is every day, for as long as I can possibly keep it up, I will set up an amount of time where I will just put my feelings toward a person in my life and send it to them. Why? Because I love everything that everyone has done for me, and no one ever really hears a thank you for what they have contributed to a person’s life. I guess the only way i can truly put it is the Papertrail to Bobby Randhawa.

i dont tumbl often and i really need to fix that. ive had so much on my mind. so many ideas, thoughts, beliefs, and feelings ive wanted to just throw into words but its been really tough to just think of perfect words. but i will change that starting now. im changing me. right now. tell you what im going to do:

1. post more stuff on tumblr
2. instead of holding back how i feel, im going to let it out. im going to tell ppl exactly what i think. it might not always be pretty, but i promise it will help me and you build character
3. start caring more about my well being
4. get what i want
5. do whatever it takes to get there
6. live life to the fullest that they will make a movie after me
7. be remembered
8. start now